Holy crap I’ve had to work through some serious resistance to get this post done. I’m guessing I’m not entirely alone in feelings of overwhelm, pressure, frustration, stagnation and exhaustion… all of which seem right in line with the energies building toward Wednesday’s Full Moon (12:16 pm PDT).
The Taurus Solar Eclipse on April 28 planted a seed for a potent new beginning, and now the Scorpio Full Moon lights up the basement of the subconscious, revealing inner blocks to creativity and growth. Where have you lost your power, passion and vitality? Where are you playing it safe and not playing your edge? What do you need to let go of so you can create what you really want?
Taurus-Scorpio themes amplified at this Full Moon include power, money and resources, intimacy and sexuality (just a few light areas…). Amping up the pressure, the Full Moon is conjunct Saturn in Scorpio, urging you to stand in your emotional authority, and get real about your priorities and values. What’s your bottom line?
The emotion associated with Saturn is FEAR, which, unconscious and unacknowledged, can become CONTROL (shadow Saturn) – either feeling controlled by external forces, or attempting to control others and outcomes. Saturn in Scorpio says, instead of obsessing over what’s happening “out there,” go straight to the source, get to the core of what’s going on by heading into the icky feelings, digging into the buried pain and uncovering the old wounds where your present-time vitality and power are being held hostage.
Meanwhile, Mars – the traditional ruler of Scorpio – is slowing to a standstill before turning from Retrograde to Direct (forward) on May 19. As Mars stations, there’s not a lot of mojo for moving forward (understatement). This is a time for turning inward and taking a deeper look at what’s motivating your desires and decisions. The process of excavating your authentic passions, regenerating your vitality, and re-wiring your inner masculine – which got started last November, when Mars entered his Retro shadow – is coming to completion, but all the pieces are still falling into place. Trying to force the process results in frustration.
Fueling the Full Moon tension (creative, sexual, and otherwise), Mars in Venus-ruled Libra opposes Venus in Mars-ruled Aries (exact on Sunday but still in effect at the Full Moon). The archetypal masculine and feminine are occupying one another’s home territory, in “mutual reception” (in astro-speak) yet in dynamic conflict. Mars in Libra is the Sacred Masculine in the guise of Lover, Artist and Peacemaker, while Venus in Aries is the Sacred Feminine as Warrior. The Venus-Mars opposition plugs into the Uranus-Pluto square, revealing our shadows, and the need for radical transformation, when it comes to balancing and integrating our inner masculine and feminine, animus and anima.
If you have some astro-technical know-how, you can discover more about what this Full Moon means for YOU by finding the house in your birth chart that contains 24 degrees Scorpio. The areas of your life signified by that house are where you are: ripe for transformation, healing and growth; being challenged to “let go to grow;” facing your shadow and acknowledging deep, dark feelings that want to be felt and released; under pressure to reclaim your emotional authority and break through internal limits; gaining clarity about your bottom-line priorities and values.
I’ll leave you with some words of inspiration from writer/activist Eve Ensler, my Venus in Aries heroine, writing about “Vagina Warriors” and exemplifying the transformational spirit of this Scorpio Full Moon:
“I have had the honor to meet women and men across this planet who have witnessed or suffered enormous violence, and rather than getting an AK47 or a machete, they feel this violence, grieve this violence and allow it to transform within their beings. Then they devote their lives to making sure it never happens to another woman or girl. We have come to call these people ‘Vagina Warriors.’ There are thousands, perhaps millions of these warriors in the world. They are fierce, obsessed, can’t be stopped, driven. They are citizens of the world. They cherish humanity over nationhood. They are done being victims. They know no one is coming to rescue them. They are community makers. They bring everyone in.
They are women and men who constantly sacrifice their own personal security and by doing so create real safety and freedom for the rest. They realize that the end goal is becoming vulnerable, realizing the place of our connection to one another rather than becoming secure, in control and alone.” (Eve Ensler, A View from a Vagina Warrior)
– Emily Trinkaus
Calling all priestesses! Want support and companionship for this Scorpio Underworld journey? Join energy-healing genius Katie Todd and me on Monday (or enjoy the recording at your leisure) – we’ll be working with these powerful Full Moon energies in our fun and informative galactivation teleclass. All women are welcome, and you just need a phone to participate. Details here.